Bladder Pain

I did another brain retraining programme 3 years ago to try and resolve vaginismus, and some bladder pain symptoms. The vaginismus was something that I had dealt with for years, and the bladder pain was new. But I had a feeling they must be connected. The course was great! And the vaginismus resolved very quickly. I had some progress with the bladder pain but unfortunately it did not resolve as quickly.

And after a brief period of it being ok, it came back with a vengeance. I admit I had hit a mental limit for being able to approach the symptoms in the same way as I had with the vaginismus. And had begun to do a lot of hopelessness. Cue a few years of doing everything but brain training to try cure it. Including acupuncture, thousands of dollars worth of supplements, seeing doctors and specialists, getting a minor surgery, pelvic floor Physio,and adhering to an intensely strict diet.

I didn’t eat sugar, dairy, wheat, oats, artificial sweeteners, citrus, alcohol. It was intense! I would wager anything you could think of, I would have tried it at least once to see if I could find that magic bullet approach to finally live comfortably again. This year I had started to feel a shift emotionally, and felt ready to try going the brain route again. I knew I could live comfortably, I had for most of my life until these past few years, I just needed support to do the final push.

Cue finding Bianca! It was pure luck I came across her website, but her story resonated with me and I really felt sure that she would be able to help. I felt determined, told all my friends I would be cured in a month, and booked in for some coaching with Bianca. I feel so grateful to Bianca for her gentle but confident encouragement, and completely indebted to her for helping me get my life back. It really was so valuable to have the weekly coaching to just know that support was there.

The first few weeks were scary! I went all out, introduced pretty much all foods back into my diet, and did the process. And Bianca helped me learn how to treat myself with much more grace while I healed. While also giving me more resources to try as I found avenues into calming my nervous system down.

True to my word, I was pretty much all better within the month. And life changed in so many more ways than I thought it would.

I became happier, more open, more inspired, my creativity revved up (important when you’re an artist!), my sex life improved, I became more social and spontaneous, and just overall I felt so much more centred and resilient. Now sometimes if I get minor little flare ups, it’s a piece of cake. I know I have the tools to calm it down quickly. And I feel confident because I know I will always have those tools.

There were so many moments I felt so lost because of my condition, but I’m so glad I didn’t give up! Thank you so much for helping me, I wouldn’t be here without you ☺️

Bianca Smeekes